I wonder whose idea was it to measure self-value by the number of suitors/roses you ever had. Or was it my misconception? Hmm.

So, during secondary school days, there was Heart Connection Day (what we called Valentine's Day) in school, which the school councillors would go around to deliver roses/flowers/whatever that is appropriate for vday. And I (along with most people, I suppose) thought it was really a sweet (and cool) thing.

Well, at least till recently.

Receiving my first flower (that's not from a friend, oh my quite loser but nvm not the point) had me thinking about this whole flower-gifting norm. What do you do when you receive a flower? Take many photos, Instagram it (to make all the other people envious of you?!) and then... chug it outside. And that poor flower is left to die and soon it will end up in the bin. Oh well. Yeah, weird me, I felt really sad for that poor flower HAHA.

Well, I digressed. So during secondary school days (or maybe even now), you will get to see how all the popular/pretty girls receiving numerous flowers while all you have are chocolates/notes from your friends (not that those aren't important but there's a difference). Does it really not affect your self-esteem? Hmm when you see pretty girls with flowers, won't you associate the number of roses you receive to your own beauty level? Ah. Am I even making any sense HAHA.

Other than measuring self-value by the number of roses you had, I guess people like to measure value by the number of suitors righttttt. I don't really have much to say about that BUT a recent conversation made me so so so disturbed. Do guys measure the value of a girl by how well the girl cooks and cleans?!?!?! Cause she will make a better wife/mother?! Now now, I will be the WORST wife and Mum then.

Hmm being very disturbed till I listened to this song.

Career woman ftw HAHA.

And damn it, why are my old photos being removed OH NOOOOOOOOO.

1. Department of Caffeine
2. Honey Creme, 313 Somerset
3. Beegurt, Thomson
4. Sunday Folks, Holland V
5. Oblong, Upper Serangoon
6. Assembly Coffee (for salted caramel waffles)

1. Cups n Canvas (for sweet potato latte)
2. GRUB

“People aren’t either wicked or noble. They’re like chef’s salads, with good things and bad things chopped and mixed together in a vinaigrette of confusion and conflict.”

Some updates... By that, it only means inserting photos of food, okay can, good job Jane.

So about two weeks back (19th September), I tried Morganfield's which was famous for ribs I guessed. The environment was quite nice (I like the wall decorations like the picture of 'Free beer tomorrow' hahaha I still remember the joke/statement of how tomorrow never comes) and the service was not bad I guess.

It always strikes me as true that most people are hardest on themselves. We are our loudest critics, our worst enemies; our very own nemesis is staring back at us in the mirror. And this is especially true in moments where we need to be a friend to ourselves. How many nights have we spent thinking, “What is wrong with me?” when someone doesn’t return the affection we tried to give? How many times have we harmed our emotional and psychological well-being by holding desperately onto something long after it has been over? How many times have we felt less than, simply because someone couldn’t see us the way those who love us do? The answer, I think, is far too often.
But what if you heard someone you loved crying at night because the person they wanted didn’t want them back? What if they told you they feel like no one is going to ever love them? What if they told you they just can’t seem to get anything right with this whole love thing? You’d probably tell them they’re beautiful, wouldn’t you? You’d probably tell them that sometimes disappointments are a blessing in disguise. You’d probably tell them that if they keep on keeping on and being the best they can be, and having a heart that is full of life and open to love, things somehow will work out.

All of this is what you should be telling yourself too. Because you are worthy of all the kindness, love, patience, and respect you give your loved ones; in any and all moments, but especially in the moments when love has made you feel less than.

Read the whole article here

Sharing this cause I think this is pretty true. Not that anyone I know that needs this currently.
Recess week sooooooon. Project week you mean?

So... It's like around 1/3 of the semester has passed. Survived week 5 with two presentations. Not too bad, considering I was sick with flu and fever one day before Tourism presentation :O Why is my immune system so weak ): And before having flu and fever, I was suffering from a huge ulcer in week 4 daaaaamn.

Been seeing a lot of matcha lava cakes on Instagram and Babette's one look so good omggg. Why are lava cakes so expensive :'(

 1. Begin Again

 2. Lucy
 

 3. If I stay- releasing on 11 September

4. Love, Rosie- releasing on 30 October
Ahhh Sam Clafin hehehe. Can't wait to see him in Hunger Games too hahaha.

5. Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 1
6. The Hobbit

And omg at the list of TV shows that looks tempting too. Like Jane the virgin and The Flash. Nope, not watching it just cause the main character is called Jane. But the storyline sounds interesting and funny. And as for The Flash, hey come on, Grant Gustin is starring in it and he is so cute hahahaha. Reminded of those days when I TRIED to watch Glee.

Okay probably should go to bed with a 8.30am class tomorrow. Gosh, why do I have such an early class?! Surviving on Kopi C and Teh C everyday. Maybe should get Teh C siew dai or even Teh C kosong instead LOL.

Good night, world.

"The way your dreams have changed, they way you perceive people differently, the habits you’re happy you lost, the new things that are important to you."

Growing to like eating pumpkins and almond paste. Frying vegetables for the first time. Snorkeling for the first time. The new obsession with matcha food. Having eggs for almost every single meal. Dying my hair purple. Conquering Viking without puking. Entering casino for the first time. Betting on horses for the first time. Looking at fireworks live.

"This is the hardest part about traveling, and it’s the very reason why we all run away again."

So maybe the Thoughtcatalog article is true. Found myself googling how to work or further studies in Australia. Hmm. It's not really about traveling, it's more about living abroad I guess hmm.

And tomorrow I will start school as a final year student hmm.

Another week of work passed and guess what, it's the end of internship officially :) So like what everyone will tell you, time will fly. Just hold on, bear with it etc. Anyway, the use of the word 'officially' is cause er, I am helping out for the fair tomorrow. Cause I feel bad oh well.

Anyway, do you ever wonder why do you give the worst treatment to the people who you are closest to? Like I tend to lose temper more often when I am around my family, my closest friends etc.

So meet my food that I got cause I am one whiny and angsty soul oh well :(

Chocolate banana, espresso and salted caramel cupcakes from Twelve Cupcakes, cause I am one irritating girlfriend LOL.

Another day of work, gonna eat two Korean meals again?! Zzz.