Should be finishing up my stats practice and read through biz ops proposal and read biz ops notes but I am... As usual distracted.

Been on Tumblr for the past few days. Well... wasn't very active on Tumblr during the last sem cause I got a little bored of it and maybe feel so bad everytime I went on Tumblr. Well, just realised how much I miss Tumblr and its like "omg so true" quotes.

So yup, some posts from Tumblr. Here are the "omg so true posts"


"...depends on where I am, who I'm with". How true. I really behave differently with different people. And I guess this sounds really really weird but I feel a deeper emotional connection with people if the conversations revolve around serious issues. Okay maybe it isn't weird cause it's only with those people I can talk about life.







These few photos/quotes are so inspirational:




Pretty places:





Cute things:


CUTE TTM




Pretty clothes:










Okay happy wednesdayyyyyyyyy

Okay it's weird cause there isn't any much work to do. Or maybe I just forgot all about my work. Shall go and watch my overdue stats lecture after typing one chunk of nonsense here.

Haven't upload my dear food photos. Time to spam food photos OKAY SO LAME.

Salted Caramel with the clique

Zicharrr

MY LOVE

Bar Chor Mee

Arteaseeeee

 Hahaha NTU has Artease now. Really in love with their salted caramel milk tea with small pearls (Y)

Lunch at Can 9

Lunch at Canteen 9 at the first time cause that's what the Queen wants LOL. Not bad.


Oh I made my choice already. Lousy photo seriously :O

Marketing (hopefully)

Oh check out these songs (if anyone is interested in my music taste LOL)

I know I should be reading up for marketing and biz ops, but this is seriously the best read on Thought Catalog in a while.



In a romantic context, some people can’t be alone. They just can’t. In some minds, it is better to settle than to be alone. And at a certain point, however much I disagree, I understand it. Yes, alone can be wonderful, it has more to offer than people give it credit for. But as wonderful as alone can be, there are very few of us who would say we would want to end up alone; there are very few of us who, when it’s all said and done, wouldn’t try almost anything not to end up alone. But what if you do? What if you end up alone?

People need people. It’s the fortunate and unfortunate truth; moreover, it’s hard for me to believe that anybody really, truly, wants to end up alone. Now there are those who for religious reasons or other reasons, that have made the decision to be alone, and they find it necessary for their commitment to a certain way of life. But for the rest of us, we don’t want to believe that alone could be on the cards, and for many of us it won’t be — because almost anything would be better than ending up in a life where you have no significant other to share your love, your pain, your joy, and your sorrow.

Sometimes I think I could be one of those people who end up alone. And when I have even so much as hinted this to family or friends, their first reaction is to discard it as naivety or the hidden insecurity of a 20-something girl who only knows so much about life, and by so much, they mean very little. And maybe that’s true; maybe they’re right but a history of very few romantic encounters and a personality that is sometimes more guarded and independent than it should be, might point to the possibility that ending up alone is not that far-fetched, at least that’s the way I see it.

Last week when I had lunch with one of my brothers, I flat-out told him, “I am good at being alone.” And as soon as I said it, it became something that didn’t just exist in my thoughts or in hidden metaphors — it was real; I had spoken it and all of a sudden it was real. It is real because I have always believed that not a lot of people can love any of us the way that we deserve to be loved; so I always knew that I would never give my heart away easily. The truth is I know that I am not the easiest person to love. I hold people who purport to love me to the highest standard because I hold myself to the highest standard. While I have learned to be compassionate of the imperfect love that I have to offer and that I might receive, I have also still been aware of the kind of love I deserve, and I don’t want to settle for anything less, ever.

I know I’ve got time or at least that’s what everyone tells me. But sometimes I wonder if we realize that one of the few things we don’t have much of in this life is time. And 20-something can turn to 40-something and to 60-something in the blink of an eye. Life goes by quickly and before you or I know it, we could have spent our entire lives telling ourselves that we have time. So while we are apt to telling people they have all the time in the world to ultimately find someone to love, I beg to differ, we don’t. We shouldn’t rush it but we shouldn’t lie to ourselves either — our days are short and numbered. And some of us, undeniably, will end up alone.

I don’t know what the future holds; none of us do. But every once in a while, the thought that I could end up alone strikes me so rather than push it away, I want to feel it, I want to feel the fear that comes with it so that maybe I can change that fear into something good, maybe even change it to love; some kind of love. I am a believer that you do make the choice to be alone at the end of the day; it may not be a choice you like, but it is a choice. And so I will have no one to hold responsible but myself if I end up alone. But till then, the best thing any of us can do is not to be frightened about a future that we cannot see. What we can do is be the best person we can be, and create a self that we’re happy with because whatever the future holds for any of us — alone or not — we all have to be with that self for the rest of our lives. 

It seems like one of those nights we ditch the whole scene

People who asked why uni kids seem so busy should seriously go knock their head against the table or something... Okay I am so mean/angsty/bitchy as usual, oh well. Haha always been telling my friends that I wish I can smack the jc teachers for telling me A levels is the worst part of our education lives. Uni is like A levels happening every semester.

Just reached home from a super looooong marketing meeting. Please, let me get an A for marketing. I realised now that there is nothing that I want to do other than marketing. I don't even feel inclined towards B&F now. I still like the idea of sounding pro and quoting bond values and all the chim terms in finance... I still like the idea of having a definite answer and not having to smoke through essays hahaha. Marketing is really different, I guess. I like how the future prospects sound like. I like how easy you can apply the concepts in daily life even though I think I am lagging behind. Self reminder: Read marketing channel again.

Recess week flew past like an airplane. Oops don't tell me I am lame, I know it. Haha I think this convo summarises how my recess week was:

Friend: How was your last week?
Me: What happened last week? Oh.. Recess week.

Yeah it doesn't even feel like a recess week. And I always wonder whether it is only NBS kids who feel this way or it is across all schools and faculties.

And recess week was so unproductive. What happened to all the plans of doing up OB notes and look at some past year papers?! I didn't even have the time to open the OB textbook :( Maybe I was too lazy hahaha. And the only days I did something was on like Tues and Sat where I camped at the library. Okay wrong word since I only studied from like erm 10am to 6pm. Anw so happy for the tauhuay on Tues (laoban is forever the best) and meeting my best foodie friend on Saturday. Always glad for the conversations we have about life and relationships hehe.

Weird thought. Do people fall for people who are really different, or do they like people who are kind of similar to them? Hmm.

Another thought. Really need to stop caring what others think. And stop overthink. Or wanting people to show more concern/care for you.

Okay so tired. :s Well at least stats test is over..

Where do people get any motivation from them? Can't believe I spent one whole day on one simple chapter of stats cause I am just not motivated. I really don't know how to motivate myself. Been trying to motivate myself by looking at exchange program.

Really really want to head overseas and leave Singapore's uni education system even for one semester. It sounds so fun. I really want to go somewhere out of Asia, to maybe somewhere in Europe but the prices is so... I don't know where the money is going to come from. Well, didn't really talk to my parents about exchange. :S But Asia countries... I have been to Taiwan, HK and Korea so it's a bit sian to go to these three places for exchange right? But if I have to choose one of them, I would love to go Taiwan even though it will be third time there. LOL. Korea is good too but the language. As for HK, I would love to eat all the dim sum and drink all the milk tea but the pace of life isn't exactly relaxing too. Japan is actually good because I haven't been there and I really really love my sashimi, sushi, salmon etc. But the cost of living :( Language also SIAN.

Thinking so much about exchange hmm but it's like no point. Results cui and lack of money to go for exchange. Feel so bad if I have to ask my parents for a huge sum of money.

Okay okay, shall not continue thinking about exchange and look at loveliest stats.

Having Jay Chou's 明明就 on repeat.
你的心事太多， 我不会戳破。
Oh noooo, it's like stuck in my head but I can't stop replaying this song. It's so addictive. Maybe that's why people say you can get addicted to certain kind of sadness. Awww, do I sound emo (again)?

It's recess week. Meetings week more like it. But this is the life I am destined to lead the moment I accepted the university offer I guess. Not that I really really regret it a lot. I don't really love what I am studying but I'm pretty glad for some of the people I know. Doubt they will ever see this, but really thank you so much for the entertainment and advice.

Did a personality quiz (again) during OB. As usual, my personality ALWAYS changes. MEHHH. I guess most of the time I am always judging. Oh and I just found out 'judging' doesn't mean judgmental okay. Just that you like to plan out things and details, which is like every Singaporean's characteristic. Okay most Singaporeans. And I am an introvert aha. People should just believe me when I say I am an introvert. All this talk and 'loud' image is just an act to hide my shyness HAHAHA. Okay just kidding. But I really love my alone time and will die without it. Oh but then again I feel better when I share my problems with more people but I seldom share them I guess. So please feel happy if I ever share any with you haha.

The best part about the personality is ... "A lot of CEOs have such personality" AHHH, always know I am meant for something big in life ;) hehehe. Okay I thick skinned.

Oh went to Bugis yesterday. Only bought one skirt :) Electric blue so cool please haha. Always wanted a maxi dress but I didn't get it still. Tsk. Oh tried Taimei's green milk tea, thanks for the treat :) Then had dinner at some Thai food place. Okay I admit, I had to stop myself from taking photos of the food #iamsiao #instagramaddict #foodismyreligion #iamlame. The food was quite okay. Tom yum soup was really hot HAHA. Make me feel like going BKK to drink more tom yum soup and go shopping. Money y u no drop from sky?

A random talk with a random group mate makes me feel so superficial. Okay maybe the wrong word. I have no idea where I want to go for exchange even though I keep saying I want to go for it. I said I want go overseas during May-August break but again idk where I want to go. WHY OH WHY. ._.

Okay actually I wanted to go Copenhagen cause it sounds cool and clean. Japan is good too. Imagine sushi AHA. And the culture there is really good I guess. So polite, maybe I will be less angst there HAHA. Hmm overseas... Someone please bring me somewhere. ._. Or maybe should be more independent hmm.

Oops supposed to do stats.


Sigh, Jay Chou's song really very addictive.
不用抉择，我会自动变成朋友。