I feel like a bimbo for saying this.

But homg, damn freaking chio all these clothes that are on sale on F21. Who cares what's the reason that the clothes are on sale. Just care whether it's cheap and nice. HAHAHA. Auntie cher strikes again too.

Seriously some of the clothes are really nice. Just that I will never be able to carry some of them off. Or have the confidence to carry them off.

Another pretty maxi dress. Think the first one looks much classier though. But the colour for this is so pretty.

3.City-Chic Skort with Sash

Avril Lavigne woohoo. And guess what, I just found out that she will be performing in Hong Kong in February 2014. How convenient huh, but tickets already started selling and I can't possibly buy it in Singapore without my parents killing me. And also thinking whether it's worth it to see Avril live hmm.

Oh wait, hi November. Been kind of slacking my weekends away again, what's new? :( Probably should start revising for Accounting. Revision for Malay is erm terrible. See that phrase before but obviously can't remember what it means SIGHHH.

Random points:

• Bowling on a random weekend had me thinking about the old bowling for fun days in Sec 2 when I was a horrible noob. Still a noob, slightly better only oops.
• So depressed on Thursday during Market Behaviour class. I am serious. Sitting in class, wondering what's the point of the lesson when we were talking about how price mechanism doesn't explain anything, about coolness etc. Thinking why I even took up something that is so.. abstract? The year 1 mod wasn't like that :( And then I thought about how I actually preferred doing Maths than to essays. And how so many people who said they don't think they want B&F being in B&F hmm. 
• Visited Waston's member sale for the first time! Damn tempted to get Loreal Hydrafresh Mask in Lotion cause it's three in one- toner, moisturiser and like mask. Like wow. And it smells damn freaking good. And it's not oily. I know it well cause.. I have been trying it every time I walked past Watson/Guardian teehee. But then I like Garnier's Sakura Essence too. Sigh pie, I only have one face, which one should I choose?! And I was looking for Garnier's Roll on Concealer too but couldn't find it sian. Haha actually I don't even bother with any makeup but really considering to conceal my horrible pimbles ): Pimples from stress, lack of sleep and caffeine omggg.
• Salads from Can B is probably my new favourite food. Hahaha really not bad for $2.50. 
• Super happy that Can 1 and Can 2 are operating again. Ayam Penyet teehee. And omg Scoopz durian icecream seriously damn freaking good. Like real durian like that omgggg.
• Nike Run SG was today and wow, one year since I ran my first 10km. I have come a long way, -patsonback- HAHA kidding. Sian really feel like running, legs stop being so weak leh. Should probably see a doctor and maybe start wearing some ankle support thing while running.
• Let me go by Avril and Love like War, Oh Calamity (and other new songs) from ATL are good (Y)

Woohoo back here after a week? It feels longer than that hmm. Had two tests today which both of them went quite badly I think -.- Sustainability quiz which was supposedly easier but I guess I can only be confident of my answers for like 6 out of 15 questions whattttt not even a pass?! Accounting test today what a joke. Can only balance shit as usual. Sucks that I can never balance anything. I really really really want to do better than a B+ for Accounting leh :( All talk no action, too lazy to prepare for Accounting tomorrow. And project meeting tomorrow early in the morning ohwell.

If you want to know how you truly feel about life, stay up until it's like in the middle of the night. Like 2am. When it is quiet and everyone else at your home is asleep.

They said that songs always serve as memory markers. Guess it's true. Remembering all those days while listening to this 2011 mashup. :) There's the 2012 one but I guess this sounds better somehow.

Feeling really tired again. Coffee plus work SIGHHHHH.

Random thing #1: I went to google for my own name and it's disturbing to see how my old twitter account appeared :/ How do I remove it when it got hacked into :( I think I reported it so many times that the account cannot be used anymore but how do I delete it? And blogger is one horrible website. I thought my blog cannot be found on Google but then I realised if someone look hard enough, it can be found. Not that I blog about top secrets but I don't like the idea that someone can just google for something and then come to my blog cause all I do here is to rant hahaha.

Random thing #2: Haven't listened to the radio station while doing work for a loooong time. Used to do that a lot during JC days and just realised they do play a lot of older (2011/2012 okay not that old) songs. Ahhh memories.

Random thing #3: Okay no one is really supposed to understand this part. I guess somehow I forgot how I wanted bigger things in life. Need to stop drifting around. Need to stop having such a imaginative mind.

Back to sustainability.

1. Been really obsessed with The Fray's songs (okay not that crazy extent) ever since I watched them performed. It's like amazing how some people have so much passion/dedication in what they are doing. Okay been playing The Fray's song while doing stupid Accounting (ewww). Look after you was playing and I thought of this random comment made by people around me during the concert... "Eh sing 'Look after you' to her lah, bet she will love you a lot." HAHA, well yes, look after you is damn freaking sweet haha.


2. Leading to another thought... Is being forever alone. HAHA okay the fear of ending up alone. Now I sound like a desperate old spinster. OH WELL. Glad to know that I am not the only one. Love it when I find people who make me feel I am not alone. Glad that someone agrees with my "I am just looking for a feeling". Yesss I know it's too idealistic perhaps. Maybe even impossible, but it's really something I believe in and I won't change it. Should really show more people the article from Thoughtcatalog, it's totally in sync (right word or not) with what I feel about this whole issue.


3. Shopping in town after like three months I think omgggg. Orchard air on a Thursday afternoon makes me happy and I am still thinking of highlighting my hair. Or extensions. Who's up for lilac highlights/extensions? Thinking that I should get that after Dec interview (and hopefully get a PA and can go HK with ahlian looking hair KIDDING about ahlian but serious about pink/lilac.Cause YOLO okay lah the reason is not cause of yolo)


4. Thinking how some people can be that selfish actually and then thinking about going out to work :( Like this selfishness is so real in the working world. Like how some people slog their guts out and in the end someone who can bullshit/naturally smarter/better in talking gets all the credit. Totally unfair. So I guess that's why we need to learn how to present well?


5. And how some people are like omg just too nice. And how sad I feel for them. Obviously thankful and like them a lot but I always feel "omgggg you need to stand up for yourself leh!!!" HAHA always don't believe in being too nice to people. Like yes, you should be nice to people generally but if people aren't nice to you, you probably shouldn't be that nice to them leh. Cause you will just be taken for granted. Taken as easily bullied. And sadly most people won't be bothered to defend you anyway. You have to learn to take care of yourself, I guess. 


6. I think I become smarter as the night progresses. And I think the tendency to make egoistic statements also increases.


7. I actually think I feel more motivated after staying up this late to rack my brains over FREAKING ACCOUNTING. But I still have no freaking idea why people can/must sleep only freaking three hours a day?! What are they/the person is doing omgggg. I feel so slack. And why is four hours considered a lot?! No wonder people do so well I guess oops.


8. Edited this post by using HTML. Still remember those lower sec days when I was obsessed with the pretty pretty background and try and customise here, customise there. Ask people read my posts. Now I am like, omg I hope most people will never see any posts here. Especially those with me emoing. Or being angsty HAHA.


9. Okay point 6 was just for fun. Good nightttt :)

Travelling has to be good for your soul. Leaving for KL for a short trip in two days' time. Will be back on National Day when dearest Singapore is 48 years old.

Was reading Ladyironchef's blog as usual and spent some time reading his overseas posts. Someday I will be going to HK and Macau. Okay I went HK once but someday I will go back there with a few friends or alone! Read some post about Taichung, now I really kind of want to go TW for exchange hehe. Okay study hard then :/

Welcome Day tomorrow. Can't wait for it to be over so I can go home and run hahaha. Nighttt :)

I feel as if I have one of the worst planning skills on Earth. :( Spent hours thinking whether if I should sign up for practical test soon. Because if I go, I probably have to balance projects and lessons. If I don't, I will probably get to sit for it in December, which means I have to practise driving immediately after exams (or even before) or even during internship... Okay, I only have to do internship if I get to go on exchange in Year 2 Sem 2, if not internship can wait for erm a little longer. But so many things are like stopping me from going on exchange (11 AUs seriously). Maybe should go during Year 3 Semester 1.

Back to driving issue...My lack of confidence in myself (while driving) is obvious.. I can't handle bends (that's what I think), I can turn on the wrong signal (cause I can't differentiate left and right maybe wth) ARGHHH. Oh and my fear of hitting the kerb each time I reverse, fear of hitting the pedestrians (bitch please, don't jaywalk in front of a L plate vehicle or any vehicle), fear of cars not observing the right of way (someone really didn't do it), fear of slamming the brakes too hard. Who said driving was easy, sigh pieee.

Okay nothing much happened this week. Erm tried Noelle's, watched the clouds, continue my running etc. BORING LIFEEE. Oh and then spent my Saturday in school for Welcome Day training :/ ARGHHH, hate travelling to school and hate anything that reminds me of 11AUs. -.- Class dinner after that. Hate navigating around Vivo LOL. Bad sense of direction. Having a car is so shiokkk, secretly love the fact that so many of them can drive now HAHA. Wish to drive someday, but scared of the thought of driving. SIGHHHH.

Some Glee song is playing now. Depressing to think about how Cory is dead :( I think I posted his photo here before when I was still into Glee. SIGHHHHH. So awkward to know someone you used to fangirl over is dead. Okay slightly fangirl over.

Oh talking about songs, I think I have been listening to really weird songs recently. Okay not weird, but songs that I won't expect myself to listen to them. OOPSSS. Oh go check out Ellie Goulding's Burn.

Okay off to read my FAVOURITE book. Inspiring quote for myself haha.

Random thoughts:

• Thinking about why I dislike smokers other than the fact they stink (hahaha) and inhaling their secondhand smoke is bad for me (cancer and ruin my stamina, I insist). And I can't believe that someone bother with a term "social smoker". Why not "social thief"? Hypocritical leh. Not that I know many smokers.
• About how I hate to go out for dinners (LOL) Hi everyone, please ask me for lunch instead. Cause I like to laze at home and I don't want unnecessarily angst from my parents. 
• How I am actually a terrible friend. I love to talk and talk about myself, I think. OH WELL.
• How much I hate going to Admiralty cause I keep bumping into people promoting religions and asking for money. ARGHHHH. Dubious charity STOP IT. Stop going against your ethics and work for these organisations. GO AND WORK IN A RETAIL STORE OR DO ADMIN WORK INSTEAD. Or better yet, study harder.
• Movie afternoons at home are so fun. Black Swan and Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind (Y). The former was really dark, probably more enjoyable for people who really like lit. Eh the latter one was good, at least it inspired me (cause I am optimistic or I don't think too much) Next up, Despicable Me. And 500 Days of Summer. Followed by Looper. Joseph Gordon-Levitt? ;)
• How simple happiness can be. Just standing in the kitchen and chopping ingredients, spreading tomato paste, watching the pizzas LOL. Or running in morning when everyone's at work. Or reading a good book.

First week of unemployment and I am feeling slightly bored at home. Didn't bother initiating many outings cause I know soon I will be broke. One month of pay only sighhh and driving is so expensive. So I have decided to spend most of my days at home.

So I guess, one month is up. Tomorrow is my last day of work in Tanjong Pagar. I guess that's the last of my temporary admin job? The next long term job will probably be an internship and then time for a permanent job? Oh well, growing up too fast haha.

Hey I am back here, from a day of driving, captain's ball, running 800m and then eating at Swensens like a pig hahaha.

I really enjoy driving lessons but I feel really really sad each time I can't stay in the middle of the line. I really have no feel for the steering wheel or the road. I really want to pass with a reasonable amount of lessons and pass on the first time. Want to strike learning driving off my bucket list haha. Bucket list, I wonder what's even on the list actually haha.

Captain's ball wasn't that bad except for the fact that everyone were feeling so tired hahaha. Old alreadyyy. Another way to tell whether you are too old, white hair omg, BRONZE GOING WHITE DAMN IT. But I didn't feel that bad and glad that I could still run a bit after that. Maybe trying to run regularly did help a little :) Self discipline! I shall try to run tomorrow and run more often. Okay for people who wonder about how do I get motivated to run. Erm the reason is simple, I eat too much and then I tell myself I am fat HAHAHA. How to remain motivated while running? Tell myself if I persevere and run finish whatever I had planned to, whatever I always want would happen. LOL scamming myself in progress.

Swensens was not bad haha so happy over my salmon and mushroom baked rice. Salmon, my loveee. Okay I wonder how many loves I have. Nvm I have a big heart enough to love all food. LAME. Ice cream omnomnom hehe. Okay the conversations were obviously more important than the food. And I realise it always feel so good to be around with people who won't make you feel awkward.

Talking about awkward, lunching with the people from Tokio Marine makes me feel awkward. Get this vibe that the perm staff doesn't really like me and I only lunched with them twice in two weeks OH WELL.

But then again, doesn't every single friendship starts off being really awkward? Okay most. Maybe should try lunching with them a few more times.

On a more serious note, I am officially in Marketing :D Let's hope this is a right choice and I won't regret not entering Banking oh well. Haha specialisation choices make me think about more things. Like future work life balance. Will I be those type of person who doesn't mind slogging away my life? Or would I hate it? I have always thought that I wouldn't spending more time at work but I realise maybe that's no the case oops. Always have this thought of "work is never ending, why don't you go home and be with your family" when I look at the people all around me. Seriously working till 11pm on a Saturday night. WHAAAATTT.

Should probably be sleeping soon, dental appointment tomorrow and then I will be free. Should probably finish reading my book :)

Such nights always have me overthinking. Like about how I think it's sad that some people can forsake old things for new things but then again maybe the old things no longer fit them so yeah it s okay I guess. And then I also wonder if I get impressed too easily. Easily bribed by food by colleagues too stupid tskkkkkkkk.

Sudden appreciation for deep conversations.. I guess midnight/late nights are best for it. But not everyone is like me... Sleep so late.

OKAY SHOULD REALLY SLEEP. Anw check out Sam Tsui's new singles and Cassadee's new song which is wasting all these tears. SAM TSUI TEEHEE, new celeb crush woohoo. Appreciate guys who can sing ;)

NIGHTTT. Going to get angst by parents soon. GOOD JOB.

Well well, I just realised I won't be really free any single day for the whole of next few weeks :( Please come find me for lunch (to anyone who sees this). Oh yeah, working and having OT for everyday I think. I have no idea why there are so many papers. Angst but I guess I have been surviving with the thought of "7.50 7.50 7.50. Driving ex. Shopping need money. Want to go exchange also need money." Things I do for money LOL.

Hi I am here again, feeling slightly less angsty and sad cause I am employed. For a month OH WELL. I seriously hope they will extend my contract and maybe I should hope that the job is really fun. I mean not very stressful. Please have nice people there haha.

Sometimes I get so angsty and maybe even bitter. Was reading Sylvia Plath's book, should really make sure I don't become emotionally unbalanced haha. I am really angsty ohwell. Headed out alone to do some shopping. And no clothes caught my eye, at least no clothes I would be be willingly and able to buy caught my eye. I mean it's good that I don't have to spend any money but I thought shopping would cheer me up LOL.

Really should be studying for my finals but I am feeling so sleepy again. :( Caffeine addict now. It's so bad for my health but I can't help it. SIGH. Trying to convince myself that if it's green tea, it can't be that bad right?

Anyway if you are feeling really bored, feel free to check the list of songs below. I am assuming that there are people who actually bother reading this hahahaa.

1. Heart Attack(the cover by Sam Tsui and Chrissy) Super gooooood (Y)
2. Mirrors- Justin Timberlake (quite a while back already I guess)
3. Just keep breathing- We The Kings

I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life.” I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." - Maya Angelou 

Okay enough of inspiration. Can't wait for the day where I can get adrenaline rush while experiencing things like this:




Woohoo bye!

Hi Friday. Well well, this week was kind of tiring with three quizzes but I am glad that they went okay. At least I hope Econs went well.

Sometimes I really need to get over myself. I mean, stop being so sensitive when people are trying to imply my econs sucks so that's why I am still doing econs now. I mean, yeah my econs isn't fantastic but that comment isn't that nice too, oh well.

Semester 2 is going to come to an end soon. Next week will be the last week woohoo. Year 2, wow. Hopefully I will be in the specialization I like. After close to two semesters, I have stopped regretting the fact that I am in NBS. Okay maybe regret is too strong a word. But I really feel so sad studying Business throughout the first semester. Maybe it's the modules. Anyway, think I have been blessed with good project groups during this semester :) Even for OB, which we were randomly assigned to groups.

This week I tried Nando's for the first time and finally got a free cone on B&J's free cone day. Thanks to people who queued up for me. Ahhh, sometimes I am too whiny, aunty and angsty for my own good oops. Nando's was pretty good but please don't try the coleslaw. So much for trying to be healthy. :( Go check out Instagram for the photo of the 1/4 chicken meal. Nomnomnom. Should order Hot next time! Oh tried chocolate cake from Awfully Chocolate for the first time also. I LIKE. HAHA, the cake now reminds me of how the expression of the Biz Ops prof when we offered him the cake LOL.

Oh talking about food, I think everyone who loves chocolate should try Mr Bean's Hazelnut Royale's pancake. :) It's going to be my new favourite pancake (sorry to caramel custard pancake oops). It's like Ferreo Rocher in a pancake! :D

Glutton Jane has come to the end of her post about food. Time for some tumblr pictures.





The yellow skirt reminds me of some skirt at Uniqlo. Pretty pretty.

The day when I went a little crazy in reblogging dog related photos...





Now now, check out my wallpaper HEHE



Oh hi there. SO CUTE.

Oh to be fair, this cat is quite cute too.




Okay bye off to do a five page reflection which is due on Tuesday and I haven't even start on it. -.-

Hi I am back with more rants. Okay I really wonder whether Capricorns are naturally more angsty or is it just me? Just read some horoscope thing on Facebook but it's in Chinese so I am lazy to copy it here. Basically, it just says that Capricorns have more extreme mood swings...

So disappointed yesterday over my quiz. Well when was the last I felt so upset over my results? HAHA. I actually feel happy that I feel upset. Finally, haha. And then I realised I haven't been studying in the right way. SO EASILY DISTRACTED BY THE PHONE. Shall leave my phone in airplane mode or leave it in another room whenever I am studying. YES I CAN DO IT.

In the past week, I finally signed up for BTT, tried Asian Dolce Latte, went Teo Heng and Astons'... Can't believe we can't find "Angel with a shotgun" there. :(

Spent the entire day today, or should I say yesterday, doing stats and OB. One chapter each only. WHY SO SLOW. Stats so time consuming :( Miss JC maths. Hahahaha. Don't care if I sound geeky, but I really think maths is my favourite subject during JC.

Okay maybe not the whole day doing stats and OB. Was looking at all the pretty hair. DIP DYED HAIR ESPECIALLY. HAIR WHY YOU SO SHORT.


Only a few more weeks to the end...

This time she's gonna fix her heart and make it bulletproof

Good nighttttt

It seems like one of those nights we ditch the whole scene